Heart and inner peace

Basically, what is a heart?? The answer that take from most 8/10 person, they said perhaps heart is to pump the blood through your body and make it function.

I used to answer to the person who ask me this question until 2011, worst thing happens in my life, im suffering from the pain in the bottom of my heart. At that time, i can't take it, my heart is shouting for help, but there is no one there except me myself know it, I want to help but i can't, i dont know how, the heart is like squeezing and im suffering the pain, what can i do? I hope there is a restart button for me so that i can prevent the worst thing happens and i would not suffer the pain... it is helpless i tell you!!
At that time, i realized that heart doesn't only pump the blood through your body and make it function, it also includes the feeling of the pain, happiness, sore, sadness, and so on.

When time passed by, my surrounding environment, people, things have started to change, keep on upgrading, but im stucked there, my time was like spoiled, and everyone time is running. It is like in a racing competition, when the referee count 3 2 1 and used the gun to shoot, BANG!, everyone starts to run, but im still standing on the same spot, and waiting for the referee to shoot.

Time goes 1 day follow by 1 day, im recovering each day, i searching for the antidote to cure the pain, first i tried is to make myself as tired as i cant think anything, but im too tired until i cant do my assignment and homeowkr, so i tried cigarattes, it helps actually but it destroying my health, i start to cough then i stop taking cigarattes.

Luckily, when there is no more way to solve the pain, my wife comes back from London, she helps me a lot, comfort me, accompany me, everything she do to me helps me a lot a lot, without her i may continue taking cigarattes, thank her so much! This makes me love her much more each day, she is the best i ever have mmuacks! <3

Now, she goes back to London to further her study, but at least she accompany me to walk pass the pain, so within the period of recovering the pain, i figured out inner peace. It is like standing at the middle of the black and white, no black no white, everything means nothing, the pain still appear but i see it as nothing by controlling my breathing, and keep my heart in peace mode, everything disappear, happiness, sadness, pain, sore, all of them disappear, it becomes nothing.. so when my wife isn't with me, i can control the pain, but i need her so much now!!!!!!

At here, i want to thank my wife, Vivian Ling, she fulfil my heart with loves, I love her so much!!!! <3